7w3d

Yesterday was the most happiest day of our lives. We got to see and hear the baby's heartbeat. It was so so cool. The baby measured 1.4cm (CRL) and we were amazed that it already had a beating heart. The heartbeat was at 148beats per minute and the doctor told us that it was great. The ultrasound tech was very nice and patient with us, even though she was running late and we were the last couple of the day. She took the time to show us the arm and leg buds and the spine of the baby. She also made sure the corpus luteum looked good and my cervix was closed. Based on the baby's length it was 7w2d and based on that my due date is July4, 2009. Then we met with the doctor who took so much time to explain everything to us. He assured us that occasional spotting is quite common with 40% of the pregnancies and my chance of a miscarriage at this stage is less than 5%. I get to continue my twice a week progesterone shots and go back for an ultrasound in 2 weeks. Yay, now I can rest in peace till Dec 2. Also my husband has named the baby TicTac as he had read online last week that it would be the size of a TicTac at 6 weeks. He also surprised me this morning with 2 DVD's for prenatal and postnatal yoga. Tracey Mallett's 3 in 1 Pregnancy System and Yoga Journal & Lamaze present by Kristen Eykel. I still haven't seen the DVD's yet and am so excited to go home and try them. Thank you all for your lovely comments as it really helped me stay calm to know that so many people out there are thinking and praying for me.

7w

The spotting was just a one time thing on Friday and I have been fine since then. Nausea and tiredness are there on and off. I am still micro analyzing every symptom or the lack of one and am anxious about my ultrasound tomorrow. I hope there is a heartbeat and a healthy embryo in there.

6w4d

I woke up this morning to some bright red spotting on my toilet paper and I have been having brown spotting ever since. I had some severe cramps yesterday but only mild cramps today. I went to my clinic for mu progesterone shot and the nurse thinks that I should wait till my Tuesday ultrasound. If the bleeding or the cramping gets worse then I go to the ER. She has also asked me to drink lots of fluids and to stay off my feet as much as possible. I am hoping that this is nothing terrible and that it will stop soon. Please please please pray for me.

6w2d

The cold and congestion that started last week got really worse over the weekend and hence I was not able to update my blog.

Also last Thursday I had some brown discharge and cramps. If I was a normal pregnant person I wouldn't have noticed the discharge in the first place. Since I come from an IF background I analyse my tp a lot and hence noticed it. I started panicking and called my clinic and they assured me that it was totally OK to have some discharge and cramping. Again I was not convinced and when I went to the clinic on Friday for the shot, I asked if I could get an ultrasound along with the blood test. In the ultrasound we saw the gestational sac and yolk sac both looking healthy and good. There was no heartbeat but I guess it was too early for it anyway. The sacs measured at 5w2d whereas based on my trigger I was at 5w4d and the tech assured me that it was totally OK. The HCG value from Friday was 13064 which was really good and the progesterone had gone up to 17 from 14 so I guess that was a good sign too.

The cold got worse after I got back home on Friday and finally I had to take Sudafed. I was having a lot of congestion and was not able to eat or sleep. My doc told me that Sudafed was safe during pregnancy and so I took 1 on Saturday and Sunday. I honestly tried really hard to tough it out without any medication but I was so sick and tired that I had to take it. By Monday it was still worse and we had to go to urgent care and there they told me that if the condition continues for another couple of days then I would have to start antibiotics. Thankfully I am feeling much better today and so no antibiotics for me. Next week Tuesday we have the big ultrasound to look for the heartbeat and I am having my fingers crossed till then.

My husband has been more than helpful these past few days. He worked from home to stay with me and made sure I ate something while I was sick. He would make me breakfast, tea, soup and also kept telling me that it was ok to take the medication. I was feeling very guilty and he kept assuring me that it was ok and it made a huge difference to me. He is such a blessing and I am so glad I have him in my life. On a funny note, when we were at the ultrasound last week the tech looked at my husband and said "DAD come stand by the head so that you can also see the screen". For a minute my husband was so lost and wasnt sure if she was talking to him. Then he realised that he was the DAD and it was so funny to see him then. I already know that he is going to be a great DAD.

Even though I had occasional mild nausea for the last 2 weeks, it really kicked in yesterday. I was not able to finish my dinner and now I cannot think about food. Just thinking about it makes me nauseous. In a way I am happy because it tells me that something is really happening inside me. Hope everything is fine with everyone. I have a lot of blogs to read and get updated.

Beta and Progesterone update

My beta more than doubled since last week from 520 to 7034 whereas my progesterone has gone down from 15 to 14. My doc has decided to increase my weekly progesterone shots to two times a week. I am trying not to panic but still am a little concerned. So far I do not have any spotting or bleeding so I guess that is a good sign. Can someone please share with me their low progesterone experiences? I am mainly concerned if twice a week is enough or do I need the shots more often.

5w3d

I am down with a nasty cold, sore throat and congestion. Also I got my progesterone shot this morning so I am even more tired and drained because of both. This morning during the blood draw as usual my vein did not co-operate. I have trouble during blood draws so they use the same vein every time and this morning that did not work. The nurse thinks that I might have developed some scar tissue because of being poked so many times at the same place. Finally she was able to get some blood from a different vein. I also convinced them to do a repeat HCG just for my sanity. I will be getting both the HCG and progesterone results this evening. I am trying to finish some work and go home early so that I can rest.

5w1d

So far other than occasional cramping and migraines I do not have any symptoms. While it would be good news for most pregnant people for me it is making me quite nervous. I would love to have some symptoms once in a while telling me that something is going on down there else I start thinking about miscarriages. I even told my nurse about this and she said that worrying is very normal and is going to last forever. She explained that we would be worrying about miscarriages, then proper growth, then premature birth, then the baby's walking, talking, school, drugs, sex, marriage, grand kids and so on.

I haven't had any spotting so far so I guess that's good news. Currently my clinic is giving me progesterone shots once a week. I have read that others take suppositories everyday and sometimes more than once a day. Is it normal to get the shots just once a week? Will it be enough to support me for the whole week.

My husband has been treating me like a queen. I remember him once telling me that my parents have spoilt me by treating me like a queen and now he does the exact same thing. He refuses to let me do anything in the house and I have to fight with him to even go get a glass of water. I don't know if I deserve such a wonderful husband and I so badly want this baby to stay, more for his sake than mine. If something happens I would feel like a failure for having let him down. I know I am supposed to be thinking positive thoughts but once in a while I worry about these things too. Again I am going to blame IF for this.